Thursday, May 13, 2010 at 5/13/2010 08:54:00 PM
i wish my troubles would pop like bubbles and go away .
today sucks .
in fact , majority of the time in school sucks .
i hate school -.-
fuck the people in it , not all though .
source of problem + frustrations .
seems that my fever , cough , flu , whatever , just got worse .
i hate being sick . i hate tml , being in T3 , searching for dumb stuffs . i hate camp , troublesome shit . totally uncalled for . i hate tuesdays , thursdays and saturdays forever . i hate people , certain people , once they get on my nerves . i hate thinking . kills my brain cells , wastes my life . i hate being disturbed while i'm spacing out . i hate questions . irritating fuck . questions = thinking . i hate it when people ask me what's wrong cause i don't want to talk about it . i hate it when people ask me to cheer up cause i can't and i'd have to force a smile , showing that everything's okay . i hate putting a front cause it's tiring . i hate it when someone's sad but i can't do anything and feel like a loser saying ,
cheer up , it's gonna be okay , just chill . cause clearly those words won't comfort the person nor get rid of the problem . i hate petty people , bossy people , cause i can never seem to get along with them . i hate how i can't say the right things at the right time , i hate how i can't make friends . i hate people , i know they hate me too . i hate love . i hate having feelings , i hate that i can be hurt . i hate having so much spare time that i start thinking about everything . i hate it when i have no mood to talk and people say that i'm emo-ing or ask why i'm not talking . i would slap you for that . i hate that i can't do well in my studies . i hate my class . i hate that i am not good enough . i hate being compared to others . i hate that i can't sleep at night . i hate my face , i hate how i look , the way i act . i hate that i'm always paranoid . i hate being insecure . Most of all , i
hate that i fear almost everything . i hate me .
sorry for ranting . :/
although , i hope tml night would be awesome . :D
CAUSE I'M GOING TO CHURCH .
yeah mommy , you should have aborted me . why the change of plans ? i hate my life now .